Writting The Future

Malas ah nk tulis BI.Kadang2 tuka BM pun best, rse cam diri sendiri.Cner nk start ek..emh, ak jenis planner type of person.but most of the time ak pun suka buat sesuatu secara rawak,maksud ak,ak xplan ap2 n hadapi sesuatu benda secara spontan.Tapi ak lebih kepada planning sebab ak boleh jangka atau expect sedikit sebanyak kalau plan ak xjd mcm yg ak nk, ap yg ak perlu buat.bese bila ak plan ak akn buat sekurang2nye 3plan.plan ak rosak teruk time ngn epy.*ni cter lame tp saje bosan,just as an example. ak suka budak ni n ak sdri tak paham nape ak suke sgt budak ni.lam kepala ak,ak tau ak dgn dia tak serasi even as friend.lam kepala ak bgtau ak perlu lupakn budak ni.tapi hati ak yg berdegil xnk terima kenyataan.dah banyak kali proposals ak direject dia sbnrnye hehe.so one day ak amek keputusan ak da tak nak dengar kata hati ak.nekad.ak ikut kepala aku.so skrg diri ak totally dperintah oleh minda ak,bukan hati ak yg degil neh..intipati dr ksh ni,pendekkanlah sng.ak plan ak nk jumpa dia for the last time n jelaskan sbb2 knpe ak nk buat smua tu,sbb ak phm dia jenis suka berkawan.ak xnk dia igt ak da xnk kwn ngn dia.kad wish brthday ak igt nk bg yg cantek pnye tp xjd sbb faktor xcukup mase.i want to make it special but unmemorized.i admit, mmg sgt susah nk buat smua tu bila hati ckp xnk.ini bukan cinta,tp obses.ak lalai.ak blocked fb dia n smua fb member dia.mmg ak rse tak rational.nmpk cm nak lari.tp sbnrnyer ak ad sbb knp ak nak buat mcmtu.final exam da dekat.ak xleh jd gila byg,so care plg cepat ialah jgn ambil tahu lagi kisah psal epy.n care tu diakui berkesan.ak da tak rase ap2 skrg,tp ak slalu berdoa agar dia happy,sbb ak still anggap dia kawan,epy,nabilah,nisa,biela,yuni.ak deact acc ak yg ni n bkk acc lama.ak hrp ak ta jumpa diorg lagi,awkward kot,da la ak block diorg.eh dah abes cter,pjg sgt neh.Hmm dulu plan ak,pas grad ak nk cari kerja ngn gaji yg selesa utk hdup sdrhana sbb ak suka hidup yg simple n sederhana.bg ak aman..kawen ngn org trengganu jgk.wife ak xlawa sgt, tp xde la xlawa sgt.hehe.sng ckp sejuk mata memandang,cam tu ar.anak ak sorg laki,sorg pmpuan.yg laki muka iras2 ak..hensem,HAHA.yg pompuan iras wife ak.ank dua org suda..anak ramai2 kos sara hdup tggi kot,kate nk hdup sdrhana.then bila ank ak da besar,smue da ad kerjaya n hdup sdri,ak bersara.ak lepak uma la plak ngn bini ak,berkebun ke..pagi2 bgun tdo bg mkn kucing,ayam,itik..hdup style org tua la,tua buat care tua.time azan ak ngn bini ak akn slalu p surau..pas bebrpe thun, ak mati dulu sblum bini ak.hdup tenang,mati pun aman..tp skrg plan ak da berubah.lepas ak tgk sekeliling ak..ak da tuka plan.ak nk blaja elok2,InsyaAllah..dpt kerja bagus,gaji ok,ak nk jaga mak n abah ak..kebajikan mak n abah ak diutamakan terlebeh dahulu.awek ke,grfren ke, wife kemudian.sbb dlu ak slalu derhaka diorg,nak2 mak ak.xdgr ckp,melawan,tinggi suare..bila kebajikan mak n abah ak stabil n terjage then baru ak pk sal jodoh.

Mahalo

Hey, I come to talk with you again bloggie googie, rawr. So as usual, I wanna put unnecessary and complicated stuffs here. I just wanna make it short, simple and brief as I am goddamn.. huarghhh.. sleepy right now. There are five things. 1st thing is Abg Najib. He is upset with me 'cause since two months ago I never seen him. Lepaking.Yeah I feel bad since I owed so much to him. He taught me to think widely in every life's perspective. Such a noble man for me as a 34 year old friend, but pervert. His character is just as same as Jiraiya in anime Naruto Shippuuden. The pervert sage. Okay just bluffing, haih. But its true haha. I should pay him a visit soon and I need to be prepared to hear to his mumbling, babbling, nagging. Yep org tua mmg suka merapu n membebel haha. 2nd thing is final exam. I failed one paper. ADS410. Uhm, I dont feel bad cause from the beginning, even before the exam I already knew I will fail this subject. My wounded feet messed my head that time. 11 stitches. The pain spread to my mind. Berdenyut. Even painkillers I had helped me less. I can pay on nothing I mean ADS stuffs, not one bit. I forced myself to keep reading unfortunately my brain copied nothing. What to say. But it does make me a bit worry, pretty much could weakening me, my spirit for the next semester. I need to be prepared then. The least I can do is dont give in. 3rd is Dayah. I am unable to avoid myself from her. I dont think there kinda feeling. Damn, uhm technically I think I do have some kind of missing her but NOT her. Shes changed. I think I just miss NurulHidayah that once I knew 3years ago not 3years later,now. This is all Piah's fault. This idiotic fellow,haih. Turned on my back. Asked me to accompany him to see her girlfriend yeah and I never expected Dayah will be there too. I wish I wont see her again. Goddamn awkward gila. Even I cant pretending to be cool and calm as I always done. Too awkward.haih. 4th driving license. I dont like it. I got 6hours left. But thats all was booringggggg. I got strict driving instructor. A dickhead type of guy. I dont hate him, I just wanna kill him. Oh just kidding. Lastly, I am jobless now. I quit as I wanna spent my time with friend and my family. Being a working person prevent you from enjoying your precious time. Thats my reason bahahahahaa. Bad consequence from that, I need more provision for this 30th July event. I need to remake up my plan for another way to get income at least RM2++. Or..otherwise I just withdraw myself then. Okay I just said what I wanna say. Fakhri Fauzi, June 29 2011-out

Kalamullah

Hye bloggie,yep as lame as always this phrase will be always be the first intro for my new entry.Uhh not "hye bloggie" but "since a while or since a long time I didnt see ya" bhahhahaa.Uhm geez, I always forgot the first thing I wanna mention each time I started to write my goddamn essay.But I realize my grammar become worsen lately. Shame for me,hahahaha. Lots of grammar mistakes in my previous entries.So Im trying to upgrade my skills now..haihh. Trying to write without uhh no,no, trying to make less errors this time. Oh have you ever heard of Ruqyah Shariah? Its compilation recitation of verses in Koran that can help to prevent and avoid evil's encroachment. Its playing all around my house right now. Dad and Mom ask me to play it using my MP3. Uhm, I do believe in ghost I mean Satans, which residing inside your body, witnessed it myself. It happened to my dad once. I did saw it of them with my own eyes. Shit, this isnt what Im trying to share with ya.Its something else but I dont have such a good idea to elaborate excellently. Heh, last night me, dad and mom debated about Dajjal, Ayat Kursi and lots of that kinda stuffs including Judgement Day. It got me into fear at the moment. I try to get rid of that thing somehow it keeps linger in my mind, cant sleep. At once I feel like wanna cry. Ive done lot of sins yet heart still wont happen to change to the other side. Im lost. No, its not the fear that disturbing my mind right now, its about my family. Well, dad is having health problem, not so serious but it do make us worry and unhappy seeing him sometimes bear the pain. We try to believe it got nothing to do with that Satanic's stuff and so on. But me and others have seen that the pain isnt not cause by his back pain alone. Its something else, yep..that thing. He told us about the pain. What he had past through. Weird. I love my family. Its goddamn hurt when Im unable to do a thing to protect them. I really wanna kill the person who did this to dad.Really.Ughh  Curse this people. The only thing I can do is pray may Allah bless and protect my family from this evil and people's envy. Emmm chow bloggie