Last Moment

  Last night was the most meaningful moment for me. Once i said i hate this place environment, but it just not puked out from my bottom in-self. Merc and me rent a car, Perodua Kancil only about RM30 for 12hours. It was Merc actually who rent it,and it was not earlier planned. It was 10pm. What linger on our mind, take a last journey driving around Kuantan. go to the place that we have never been such as behind UiTM Padang Lalang where there are many dogs,hahaha.. There are nothing to be afraid of, we are driving no more walking and be chase away by dogs. It was fun, enjoyable and I wont forget this moment. It was just me and Merc and we got bored with only two person in a car, so we call everyone who is free. As usual, Merc will call the girls first. Nusrat, Nadya and  Umie Idayu. They wanna join. Actually Im not really comfortable with them as i rarely speak with Nadya. Umie Idayu? I have never speak with her. Nusrat is okay as she is flexible and lots of thing we can talk about. However it was different. It was nice to hang up with them. It was enjoyable moment as they all three are superb beautiful..er really?hahaha.. At 11.45 we drove them to Padang Lalang and leave them at the campus. Then we continued driving to ECM. We picked Amer, Pika, Dina, Badot and Baby there. Again we went to Teluk Cempedak. Dina did not wanna follow us as she was not feeling well. It was a great moment spent with them. We played a game, he/she will be asked by he/she. We twist the pen and the first person chosen will be asked by the second person. Hoo i will miss them damn much. I tried to butter up my self don't worry. well be met again someday. If we was destined to meet again we will see each other again if not just accept for what has been destined for us.

Hollow

    24,25 and the last paper will be on 27, Monday. Thinking of home, i really want to go home quickly. If i could, after the test i wanna leave the campus. Sick of the environment, the people.. No, sick of myself actually. I couldn't be myself. I don't know what i fear of. It's hard to explain. Being kind to all people is not easy, poker face even inside i don't like them. After this foundation Im going to change my number again and leave all the memories here behind. For me, theres nothing meaningful here to be remembered. Suck and always sickening this mental to be appa,yie or whatever they call me. Global issue was not easy but i didn't have problem to answer it. What i have read were casted on the paper. Lucky for me. But today the economic paper was quite tough and mentally challenged me. Part A, the objective questions there were only six questions confidently answered. Half of them were doubted answered and the rest, as usual "im riding a shotgun man!" BANG,BANG! Part B the first question was not a problem even at the beginning i had such kinda memory distortion of how to answer them. But in the Part C, it really made me down. Blank, full of question marks linger on my mind. I never picked up on that topics. Even worse all the topics that i expected, nothing I commonly answered before was not there. Quite lucky on the way to IKIP i've read some about functions of money and Bank Negara. Better less then nothing. Each question asked 4 functions and i only managed to get 2 correct answer each. The 2 left, goreng as logically thinking. Okay, stop right here. Stand down for law then continue for the next last minute revisions. Shuhhh..shuhhh economy!

Bang-Up

 My hardisk and ram completely fried, i think its not wrong to take five. Better less than nothing. Listening to Kissing by Miranda Groove haha, against my music's nature but its kinda relieve this feeling though. Since this final exam is everything for me. Facebook, Formspring, Twitter all those kind of shit i have deactivated so i can focus on the exam. I need to achieve bang-up GPA otherwise i couldn't manage to grasp what i demand for my future. Going and coming, all the subjects are the only trumps card left. Sometimes i wonder about her too. After this foundation it possibly hard for me to see her again. Plus I never believe in long distance relationship. I really don't wanna hurt her. But what im really wanna say, I'm not a man that need somebody to walk along with me, beside me. My ultimate opportunity are my family and my friends. I think the same goes to her. But, that thing keeps doubting me. I hope she never care about me for being idle and silent. Maybe she's right , i like the chase but i never intend to catch. Nothing left to say, Im a lone wolf. Doesn't lead and be leaded.