A Fool

I am not heartless. I just using my heart less. Never say I take you for granted, no. Because I always care, and always will. Im unable to say I love you cause I couldn't sense it presence inside. Unfathomable. But I promised to myself, I wont hurt you and I will take a good care of you. Maybe its to childish and too early to say this. Someday the person I wish to marry is a girl like you. Ill see your dad, your mom.. Damn thing. If only I have the guts to tell you how exactly I feel, explain. Ugh. Its devastating my heart and my soul. Unfathomable me.

Uppermost

Esk test JPJ. Mlm ni ak kena tido awal. Ak separa perjalanan ke alam mimpi. "Fakhri, bgun" mak kejut. Ak amek henfon tgk jam 2.35 a.m. Adik lelaki ak tak balik rumah lagi. Ak bangun pergi cari kat rumah member dia. Kampung skrg bkn mcm dulu. Nampak org sebarangan ushar2 rumah org nasib tak baik bleh kena tibai. Ahh org nk tibai ak, ak tibai dia balik. Niat ak bkn nk rompak rumah org, Ak nk cari adik ak. Ak da tak pikir panjang. Jumpa adk ak, ak nk terajang. Marah sangat. Ak bkn mrh dia. Ak mrh kat abah. Manjakan sgt. Form4 da dpt moto. Keluar rumah balik kul12 mlm xape, asal balik tepat mase. Bg ak tu sgt lah tak betul didik anak mcm tu. Time ak form4, kuar rumah balik kul12mlm ak kena terajang. Ak cari tp xjumpa, balik rumah dengar mak membebel pasal dia, ak dengar jelah. Sakit hati. Mak pun satu. Bg muka. Mak suh ak tggu lua umah, tggu dia balik. Ak duduk kat dpn rumah. Ak try pk positif. Kekerasan bkn care yg betul. Ak da tak tahu nk ajar care mcmne. Adik ak balik, nek moto dgn member dia. Member dia nampak ak tgh duduk ats bangku hantar adk ak terus cabut lari. Ak tuka fikiran. Ak ckp elok2. Dia nampak mcm dgar, tp entahlah. I care about my sibling, ak xnk jd mcm abah. Sakit hati pendam, then diam. Bg ak tu bukan care yg betul nak control marah. Bila da hlg sabar mula lah kaki tangan terajang melekap kat badan. TAK. Ak xnak jadi mcm dia. Ak bkn dia. Ya Allah, hari ni kau uji kesabaran ak. Ak sabar Ya Allah. Bukakanlah pintu hati adik lelaki ak utk berubah. One last thing, bantu lah ak utk mengawal syaitan yg tidur dalam diri ak. Ak mohon

Home Alone

Found a house at Taman Melaka Baru, RM280 per month including streamyx. Maybe for the first month ak stay sorg diri. Mak tak tahu and uhhh..dia tak patut tahu. Ak da kira budget dgn duit yg sedia ada, ak mampu. Deposit RM940. Sakit jgklah ak bulan ni kena saving. Takpe, tak lama. Ak boleh survive. Mmg ak nk sgt duduk sengsorg sbnrnye. BUkan apa..budak2 lain sume nak duduk ramai2 sampai 17 org ap benda mainan, ak xleh mcmtu. Byk dugaan dan masalah. Semua bukan satu kepala. Kalau ya ak tak kisah. Plus Adib stay ngn aku bulan 10. Dia start kerja sane. ak ngn diua jela, member dr sekolah lg best. So, problem settled. Tun je nk ckp. K chow.