Hello Andre

   Since the first semester i didn;t see them. A few days ago one of the newbie came to Kuantan. There is no one else to greet him except me. Actually Nizam is here but he is too busy with his assignments and plus on that day he has mid-final test. Hoo.. of course i got no other options. Never mind, just once being a tour guider.There is nothing wrong. After breaking fast I met him at Bukit Pelindung, quite far away from the campus. Fortunately, thanks to Nizam's friend for borrowing his car to me. Even it is just Kancil, it was comfortable enough. Hey, my leg was too "short" to press the fuel. Thats why i hate Kancil. It was already 10pm and ECM and Mega was closing. I did'nt know where should I go. Struggle of such place for shopping? Illegal driver on the road? That things mattered on my mind. Lastly i brought him to the terminal. "Hello Andre" thats the first sentence i heard when i met him. On the first place, it has been a while someone calls me with that name. But for a newbie like him. I feel honorable. He gave me some respect there. Yeah, yeah.. still i got no idea where should i go next. Ohh. Abg Pong. His restaurant just nearby the Mega. Erm, meantime im not as warm as Nizam with him. I strayed from the line. Thats the reason why Abg Pong was not too friendly with me. He said once, brotherhood is the most importance essence in a crowd. I know what he said, but he didn;t get what im trying to explain. He asssumed me as a selfish person..tch~! But everything was getting better when we arrived there. Not as cold as i thought. The newbie is a smooth talker person. He changed the environment. Thanks dude. Hooo..bored.


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White Lotus

When you said you afraid of people who will say you are not the person they knew, do you wanna know something? You remind me of someone. Someone that is very important and the most i care for,once. I dont wanna talk about her. Its already 2 and half year ago.What the most attractive about you for me is your smile. Obviously i can see your blushing face during the first time we've met i mean face to face. I was stuck in my own throat, unable to say a thing. I see the different in you even i really don't know how to express it by words. But what i can say when i look into your eyes, i see something that i could never  see in other girls i;ve met before. My instinct whisper she is a nice girl.

Bila hati berpuisi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ox3U2lcfYSw

Pride

 menyindir kawan saya. memandang rendah pada kawan saya. tak menghormati kawan saya. itu saya masih boleh terima. tapi bila saya tahu dia memperlekehkan  asal kawan saya, saya sangat terkejut dan tak boleh terima. saya turut terasa. im dissapointed and upset with that. My friends is my first priority. kalaulah dia tahu saya yang sebenar, sebelah mata pun dia takkan pandang saya. Ya, saya budak kampung yang tak ada keistimewaan apa apa selain budi bicara dan pegangan saya. tapi itu tak bermakna saya tak yakin dengan apa yang saya ada. saya adalah saya. saya punya prinsip yang mengajar saya apa itu kesempurnaan yang tiada sempurna. tak salah berbangga dengan apa yang kita ada kerana ia kurniaan tuhan kepada kita, tetapi mengagungkan kelebihan itu tidak sewajarnya.  saya percaya kalau apa yang saya katakan ini benar, selepas ini dia akan membenci dan meluat dengan saya.

Malang

Memang dari dulu macam ni. Tak tahulah sebab memang aku yang lalai atau memang benda dah nak jadi. 3minggu lepas kaki kanan seliuh sebab futsal. Dah nak baik dah pun masuk bulan ramadhan. Then hari ke3 ramadhan boleh tergelincir kat tangga licin sebab hujan. Aiyoo..bangun jer tiba tiba rasa sakit cam masa first kena tu datang balik.Ughhh.. Semalam memang takdir kot, eh mungkin aku sengaja cari pasal. Tak ada siapa suruh pun aku naik bumbung. Time nak turun memang la gelap gila. Adoihhh!! tersepak pintu masuk bumbung. Besi ouh, memang tipu ar tak sakit. Kesimpulan kaki kiri n kaki kanan aku jammed. Tak larat nak turun aku tido bumbung jew malam td.  Besh jugak tengok bintang..cantik.. lam kul 4lebih aku bangun balik sebab sejuk. Embun subuh, habis basah bantal aku. Nak turun punyalah seksa. Makin sakit kaki aku. Tak boleh nak langkah Herm malasla pulak nak taip. Senang cerita dua kelas aku skip hari ni. Tak boleh jalan. Jalan cam orang tempang camna nak masuk kelas? Amek balm ako n aku ambil kain tilam koyakkan n balut kaki ni. Baru rasa lega, kurang jugaklah sakit time nak pijak. Kelas bel tadi dah kena bahan ngn Dr J pakai selipar masuk kelas, lewat lagi. Adoy..nasib baik kau orang tua.

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Then i realize what im looking for is not what im searching for. 

Shallow breath

  Maybe she is right, im a person who always jump too early for a conclusion. Maybe all girls are just the same. Now i couldn't see how she see me as me see her. Later, im drowning myself by the current. Honesty is meaningless, i don't know. Maybe it's just, i slipped on my step. I'm practicing wrong formula, or maybe she only see me as commoner. Not more than a commoner. Really i don't know, there are lot of possibility. Even worse, i couldn't ignite a solution. Expensive is not the matter. But you are like something that must be bought by dollars, and i don't have the currency for dollars. Just Ringgit Malaysia available in my wallet. A little, it's killing me inside,though it's still a pain. Maybe,i don't deserve her. A commoner. Just like the beauty and the beast.

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Turn Back The Pendulum 3

Since 4 days ago I didn't sleep at night. Being a bat as usual as when i was at home. Stay up late night and sleep on daylight. I'm well aware as a student, it's not good to sleep on daylight, keeps those habits indirectly just chronically toxify this body and mind. Smoke, listening to music, facebook on9 and studying while thinking of how to manage all the assignments. Today after the test, it was all dizzy thought i reached my limit. 2.15 pm, i laid on my curving bed which contributed to my back pain. Just ignored that creepy pain, i was too sleepy. Kak Nor, Siti, Donny, Napie, Daddy and Cik Mimi. The memories during i was in Bangi fill up my sleep this afternoon.I couldn't fathom why, rarely i clearly remembered my dreams before, plus i never think of them too. This dream was kinda weird but hey, i miss them all, haha.. I miss to hear to Donny's song while there were no customers around, his own song. I'm still remember, he said he came to Malaysia to work, when he got enough amoun of money he wanted to return to Indonesia and establish a band me as the drummer, BedaBand, hahaha.. I read one of his lyrics once.. That's was after a week i keep trying to see his lyrics, but he didn't want to show it to me. "Mana boleh fakri..ini sekret banget..bisa kamu copy kalau kamu lihatnya!" Wow, nice..no wonder why. Kak Nor always with her warm joke even on the first day I came to MCPG, she didn't like me at all. She handle the chipping part.How a person like me could do the work such taking the orders, mopping the floor which for her, I am unable to do all kind of such hard works. Then we were like bestfriends..Ngumpat bos, Cik Mimi and Daddy. HAHA Oh, well thats all. Someones coming..tch~ potong stim betol

TRASH

Im trash. I not a good friend.Truly i am. Regret? Yes.. My joke was bad. But it's too late. I know she will never believe in me anymore. I betrayed her trust on me. TRULY I HATE MYSELF..You know what..the feels of losing a bestfriend is even worse than losing ten special girlfriends.


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Bangang

Aku tengah siapkan assignment. Tiba2 ada orang call, Sha. "tolong kiteorg masuk jap" Sha,Hijrah,Ma, n Gonjol duk kat lua pagar belakang. Jam dah pukul 11 lebih. Aku tinggalkan assigment yang dah separuh siap semata-mata nak tolong diorg. Aku pergi usha line clear ke tak, Aku nampak Abg Shah ngh duduk lam post pengawal. Tak tahu kenapa, masa tgh jalan aku nampak kucing tgh lari. Maknanya ada orang dekat-dekat tu. Hati aku rasa cam ada yang xkena. Tapi betapa bangang, aku endahkan je. Confirm xde org lain masa tu. Aku amek besi katil baru je nak baling, sekali lagi naluri aku kata "JANGAN, BERHENTI!" Aku paling belakang tengok kat dining hall ada kaki orang, pak guard GILA! Abg Shah..! macam mana dia boleh ada situ pulak?? tak sampai 1minit! Memang dah kantoi ar. Bila dah nampak mcm tu ak tggalkan je besi katil kat tepi pagar terus naik bilik. Aku call Sha suh cepat2 tggalkan tempat tu. Memang dah nak kena, skali pak guard nek moto usha diorg kat lua, empat2 orang kantoi. Paada masa yang sama blackout pulak. Tambah lagi malang aku, assignment yg aku buat tadi aku belum save. Habis hilang, sia2 camtu je. Tengah blackout tu Sha naik cari aku ckp Pak Guard suh dia cari orang yg

Berbaloi

   Balik futsal mandi sumer kul8 lebih aku terus tido. Letih gila kot, habis urat keting urat belikat aku sakit. Excited melampau main futsal. Tak makan lagi bangun jew tengok jam dah 1.30 pagi..! Gila lama aku tido, perut meraung suh isi bahan api, Nasib baik ada megi, makan je la sementara tu walaupun aku kureng lau bab isi perut hanya ngn mkan megi, NOT GOOD. Pagi kul 9.30 bas senior pergi CDO. Hesitate nak pergi ke tak. Budak-budak lain ramai yang tak nak pergi. Apa yang syoknyer lau sibuk dgn junior senior tak ada? Budak group A, F, Emet, Burn, Saddam sumer pergi Gambang waterpark. Turun bawah p breakfast jumpa Gonjol n Kay. "Appa ko p CDO tak? lau nak mai ar tumpang kteorg nak hantar Komag, pastu trus g Gambang. Haa..ada geng,Komag! pergi jelah.. First sampai rasa cam menyesal gila datang. Tak tahu nak buat apa. Cis33!! tapi bila tengok semua orang happy jep join junior, dah kenal ramai orang bru rasa seronoknye..hahahaha... Okay lah jgk junior overall=) Ada yang satu kepala, boleh wat geng. Part yang paling excited n xbole lupa masa main tarik tali. First round senior kalah. Tapi second round, 3rd round semua senior tak putus asa! Junior semua besar2 gajah. Tangan dah tak rasa apa dah tapi still xnk lepas tali,hohoho.. Seronok.. tak sia-sia aku datang. Kelas aku Madi,Syah,Dayah, n Wawa je yang datang. Cian tengok 3org budak ni jalan tepi pantai cam xe geng aku pun wat nyebok join sekali..haha. besh ar kwn ngn diorg sbenarnye. Sempoi..!;D Hoo..cner nak p kelas ngn kaki sakit, pinggang pun sangat lah sakit.. haha

You Are Sugar

Damn!! I don't understand why.. I could say nothing even i really wanna say Hi=) Hi..its just like too hard to be puked out,ughh. I couldn't be myself. Maybe I am nobody to greet her. Obviously, I'm just a stranger in her eyes. DAMN!! I HATE MYSELF for unable to change that part.

=))

A week before i've said go to hell with futsal. However now it turned different! I felt the sense. Today im so happy, so many of sweet and unforgettable memories carved. I'm glad to see others smile. Congrats to girls Law H and thanks to group Law F for the opportunity to play in their group. Even theres not much helps i gave, i just palyed in one game feat Group C. Still,i got a medal as memories of foundation, here in UiTM.:)  Million Thank You to SHA,GONJOL,ADAM,HIJRAH,CEPU,KAY,MA..:D


Hmm.. Hungry and starving!!!! i haven't eaten yet since morning!! back from futsal i slept for a few hours till 1.30 a.m. huhu.. Mok..lapo..;(