Punch Me

I'm hungry.

Super duper crazy hungry.

I cooked for myself.

A spaghetti.

I took a pot from the cabinet.

A new one.

Shiny, expensive maybe.

Nah..I don't think so.

Well, kinda good pot.

The spaghetti well cooked, quickly.

I lift the lid.

Prang!!

Shoot! it slipped off from my hand.

Broken glasses spread on the floor.

Dup dap, dup dap.

My hearts rate increasing.

My bloods flow also.

Yeah, my mom went super duper angry.

Thats one of her beloved pot.

No one are allowed to touch that.

A gift from her beloved friend.

Her bestfriend during she studying in UKM.

Ohh no wonder why she so upset.

I wanted to replace for a new one

"its meaningless"

she said.

Ughh.. Guilt wrap over me.

  But I could do nothing..

damn..I hate myself

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Lunatic

Malam yang boring

Customer kurang 
Abg suh tutup kedai awal
Keluar mkn ngn bini tersayang

Yeah! happy!!:DD

 tapi bosan jugak

Balik rumah bukan boleh on9

Tak ada apa nak buat

Jadi unhappy balik :(

Pusing bandar 2 3 round

BOSAN~

Pergi pantai Kual Ibai

Sunyi,gelap n tak ada orang

Tapi aman n tenang..:)

Buka baju

Debushh!!

Terjun laut

Angin kuat n sejuk 

Tapi air laut rasa suam

Pelikkan

Hilang semua sisa2 masalah, tension, serabut

HOoo~selesanya

Balik rumah baru aku sedar

Sumpah kerja gila

Mandi laut malam buta

Sorang sorang

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Half Boiled

 Don't ever drink Boss coffee and nescafe at one time otherwise you will get insomnia. Thats what happened to me last night, i didn't sleep until this moment i create this entry. Its all fuzzy right now half of my mind doesn't know what i'm doing right now. Just wanna put some "flavour" since its been a while i didn't update bloggie googie,haha. Everything went smoothly today.. I manage to handle the environment. How to face Aya? I just ignore everything she said to me last day and acts like nothing happened. Plus I called her "Kakak" today and she went upset,kihkih. I couldn't not avoid her afterall, just being a poker face. Being cool even Im well aware that Im not cool, Im COLD haha.. Hmm, I think theres nothing wrong to be a poker face if we intend to secure our relation as co-worker and as a human bond between man and woman. Hoo~ one problem solved. I wonder what's problem more upwaiting me for the next day. Also last night I lepaking with Merc and as usual when we meet "apa cter terbaru bro?" Bulks of new informations about every fellas.Ughh..tired, and sleepy already. Guess I went over my limit. Time to sleep


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p/s: ntah apa kebenda aku mengarut

T.E.N.S.I.O.N

 Adib dah tak kerja, bermakna aku sorang jelah yang cover bahagian dalam. Tapi tak kisah sangat lah sebab Abang bayar aku gaji lebih. RM30 kalau nak banding ngn dulu RM20 je..hehhe So, padanlah dengan penderitaan aku setiap malam. Misi aku nak capai RM800 dalam masa sebulan takkan jadi masalah kalau aku berjimat.Hoo..macam2 jadi dalam satu minggu ni, Benda yang bukan masalah aku pun boleh buat aku sakit kepala. Bila aku tengok Adib dengan Uda gaduh semalam buat aku rasa macam serabut je klau ada awek. Mnyesal aku ikut Adib teman dia dating..haha. Ahh malas ar nak cakap pasal ni. Lagi satu masalah muncul kat tempat kerja. AKU BENCI PEREMPUAN GEDIK. Mungkin benci bunyi macam teruk sangat kot tapi aku rasa sangat-sangat rimas dan tak selesa dengan perangai Aya. Abang bagi aku bawak laptop sebab tak nak bagi kiterong bosan, boleh on9 hehe tapi Aya ni..bila dah kenal internet kerja macam lebih kurang jer sampai Abang pun suruh aku jangan bawa laptop dah. Aku pun okay jer, lagipun tak ada mood juga nak on9 sambil kerja. Bila ungkit pasal perangai Aya memang buat aku serabut. Mana aku pergi situlah dia ikut. Hari-hari kerja muka dia jer depan aku..kalu nak ikut kan pangkat, aku kena panggil dia kakak. Ya Allah, aku terkejut malam tadi bila dia cakap dia suka aku. Aku buat buat gelak macam dia saje gurau dengan aku then terus keluar. Dari saat tu aku langsung tak tegur Aya. Biasa bila dia angkat pinggan aku tolong jgk tapi harini aku buat bodoh jer.Aku tak tahu macam mana nak handle benda niy selain buat tak tahu. Dahla torent pun buat hal malam ni, sepatutnya download movie tak sampai 3jam jadi bermingu minggu lamanya.haish..

Pieces

Its already fade off. But still, the feels during that day, that horrible night, I can still remember until today. The worst mistake I've ever done in my life. But a million thanks also, I learnt so many things for that. Patience, anger, calm, even I'm still do not enough understand but I know whats the meaning. I thought i've destroyed all the memories, somehow just now I found two pieces of card under the cupboard. Happy Eid and the other one Happy Birthday. I smiled off how it reminds me off you. HAHA an idiot as always

Face On

Enough time for rest

I am all fire up

Put on the shield


Roll on the wheel

Im going to the battlefield

bhahaahaha

Again.

                                                                                      p/s: Esok start kerja dan aku rasa malas.

Lucifer The Deliora

 Okay todays early in the morning entry is serious and I'm not intend to joke about. I don't know what's the point but uhh.. let me begin the story. First of all, it is just not like me to wake up early in the morning like today. Still, I am sleepy. Last night, as usual i watched movies, listened to mp3 and nap at 4 or 5 in the late morning. Of course everyday i mean before, i woke up in the afternoon about 12pm or the latest time i woke usually 3pm. Last night, I don't have an idea how the hell i could think about evil, bad spirit. I whispered in my heart, "Hey evil spirit come and get me, i will never intimidate by you, i don't afraid of you at all, not one bit!!". Yeah, i just whispered it that time. Before that, I felt that something behind me, usually I just ignored the feeling..see? It just my feeling. But when i felt shaky and kinda bristle all of sudden I got to tell ya, hey this is really something. Thats the reason why i whispered like that. The consequences is, which is the main point that I'm trying to highlights i had delirious, bad dream. I had it three times. It was when i was about to sleep. I couldn't sleep well where when I fell asleep I had that dream. My head felt dizzy and ache. Now I confirm it was the evil, maybe because I challenged it/him last night. Okay, I was little scared, yeah I couldn't sleep. It was eerie feelings i swear. I dreamnt of a pair of black arms that crawling behind me. I was sleeping in that dream thats make it more eerie. Sharp nails, scaly skins and the arms crawled to my chest. I was like he was searching for my heart. When it reached my heart, the arms tighten its hold and thats made me breathless. It happened for three times, all the same dream and i can remember the details of this nightmare. The third time, I couldn't hold my patience anymore, its been twice I had it. I've become angry and got little brave, yeah..how can i sleep if it keeps like this??. This third I wont make it be the same. Meantime i thought of that, i knew this is a dream. I turned back and i tried to catched the arms. I managed to grab it but it slipped off. When I woke up and open my eyes, my arms was grabbing nothing and I was half standing on the bed, weird... It was 4.45 am. This is what people said evil's encroachment. Ive read once about evils harassment in dream. If you dreamnt of something eerie like there was a black snake chasing you, dream of losing of your beloved person such as your parents died. Thats mean evil is playing with your mind. I read 3kul and Ayat Qursi and then sleep. The dream stopped. Okay, wanna continue sleeping.


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Imbalance

 Wow, time is going very fast even I can still detailly remember the first day I came to UiTM Sekilau on the registration's day. One and half year passed, and now the foundation is over. Well, I hate to memorizes the past, even it was sweet and happy memories. However, that doesn't meant I never look back at all. For certain reason, we should look at the past so we will able to measure how far we have changed, worst or bad, good or better, in other meaning to be a better person for the upcoming days. Let the past become the history. I admit it, it is fucking boring to be at home. There's not much I can do. But today I filled up my leisure time by jogging, alone..haha. It was not bad okay, jog around the village, emm..about 3 kilometres maybe. Say Hi to everybody and everyone I met along the way. Sometimes when I think back, it just not like me. I still wonder what Im going to do during this holiday. There's no way I will fill up my time by jogging everyday. Last month, my mom asked me to take the driving license's test, but I feel that uhh.. I don't really need a driving license right now. Well, it is only an excuse..actually I dislike to be at the driving school. I hate waiting for my turn, plus I know and able to drive any type of car. I even drove a lorry once. The gearbox was a bit different like cars. But the concept was just the same. Indirectly, I already have the driving license, illegal license,HAHA. The only problem for a person like me is the police, JPJ and the insurance. Yeah it would be dangerous and risky to drive without license. I am well aware of that. I will take the the test but maybe now is not the time. Theres something I wanna to do first. I want to work, find a job. I wanna get my own pocket money so that I don't need to ask from her then. I can buy anything I want. Freedom to buy. Hooo~


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