Howl

     Lone Lone and alone. As a lone wolf it never fathom the meaning of alone as well as it is the lone wolf's nature. But when a lone wolf howls, it show that it is suffering of loosing or separated from the clan. Ancient Egyptians believe wolves are the symbolic of friends, partners or members. How far i went i could never be as the real lone wolf, im just a human afterall. Theres no way i could be as cold-hearted as i wish, a lone wolf. A lone wolf just move before of itself. It fights, it live for what he believe. A lone wolf doesn't lead nor be leaded. It don't fights for other's belief. it has its own belief. He against whom intersecting with his path of line,its belief. Lately, there was so many things happened. Some were good and some otherwise. Mostly drive to the emptiness. I don't know but this such unpleasant feeling sometimes makes me upset. The person i care, trust, believe, and love for.. all gone, one by one. The first person who i love and care so much will not be at home during this Eid. It is very upsetting me, since the last day i went home during mid-term holiday. After the break until today i didn't see him. Little aggrieved, because it will be two months more to see him again. No chance of having breakfasting together, the worst. Then the person the most i believe in this playground left for something, i don't think i will type it here. But i remember what you have told me before about your nightmare. In that dream you was back stabbed by someone you closely know. Today i can see your words was casting on yourself now. This is a very serious problem for me as both are my friends . I cant stand a word when i listened to what he told us last night. He who said you was the back stabber friend back then is actually who are the real bad ass!! As always, selfish.. he just think of himself and only want to save himself. When i heard to what he said last night, i felt amused, annoyed, he made me sick. You are the real actor here,Coward..!! Yeah, its true you have done nothing wrong regarding the case. But, because of the statement you gave to the cop, you just making the the risk dragging as together into the case even more serious and higher. You are fucking coward person. You dare to tell the cops the truth just because you just want to save yourself by telling from A to Z about him to the cop? Have you lost your mind? I don't mind  if i will be dragged in too, i've done it. I cant let him bear the wrongful that we planned together alone. Everyone was worried that you will pick our name. But i know who you are, you will never do something like that. Now, it was proven that my trust on you was not wasted. By the time im typing this entry i was fall asleep. So relieved when i woke up i see miscalls from you. After i called back you was released now. Hoo..what a relieved friend. Alhamdulillah.