Vow

  I am pursuing my dream by taking part in silat olahraga. That's what I ever wanted since I joined this association 3years ago. I never intended to learn this martial art only for self-defense, NO but I wanna fight someone so I'll be able to measure my own ability and identify my weakness. I had little problem to participate actually as I didn't finished my syllabus before which mean Im not qualified to be a member. Damn, they require person who already had at least bengkung putih. If I still recall I skipped at 19th step, Kuntau Jatuh eh? no, Ali Patah Atas. I can't use Tapak Suci to fulfill the requirement as it is unregistered under PESAKA. So as a medium, I must be the member of Silat Cekak Malaysia. This is the biggest problem since I was an ex-student of Silat Cekak Ustz.Hanafi and these two associations had kinda really bad relationship. I made a damn fool mistake when I asked their master whats the difference between these two association, accidentally told him I studied silat cekak once,"silat cekak Ustz Hanafi". Stupid, stupid, stupid ! Indirectly they'll recognize me as Ustz.Radzi influence. NO GOOD. His face turned cold and he glare at me like I am his enemy. Im lying if I say Im not afraid. Soon, I'll be studying under his supervisions. It worries me damn much, haih. I might be "dianak tirikan". I heard rumors once about their dark history, why they separated into two associations, and I can tell it is not just rumors after what had happened to me last night, that glance. Yeah Im afraid, but that doesn't mean I will stop and scram. I've decided for this path and I will never turn back. I will do what it takes. Enough said !