Kalamullah

Hye bloggie,yep as lame as always this phrase will be always be the first intro for my new entry.Uhh not "hye bloggie" but "since a while or since a long time I didnt see ya" bhahhahaa.Uhm geez, I always forgot the first thing I wanna mention each time I started to write my goddamn essay.But I realize my grammar become worsen lately. Shame for me,hahahaha. Lots of grammar mistakes in my previous entries.So Im trying to upgrade my skills now..haihh. Trying to write without uhh no,no, trying to make less errors this time. Oh have you ever heard of Ruqyah Shariah? Its compilation recitation of verses in Koran that can help to prevent and avoid evil's encroachment. Its playing all around my house right now. Dad and Mom ask me to play it using my MP3. Uhm, I do believe in ghost I mean Satans, which residing inside your body, witnessed it myself. It happened to my dad once. I did saw it of them with my own eyes. Shit, this isnt what Im trying to share with ya.Its something else but I dont have such a good idea to elaborate excellently. Heh, last night me, dad and mom debated about Dajjal, Ayat Kursi and lots of that kinda stuffs including Judgement Day. It got me into fear at the moment. I try to get rid of that thing somehow it keeps linger in my mind, cant sleep. At once I feel like wanna cry. Ive done lot of sins yet heart still wont happen to change to the other side. Im lost. No, its not the fear that disturbing my mind right now, its about my family. Well, dad is having health problem, not so serious but it do make us worry and unhappy seeing him sometimes bear the pain. We try to believe it got nothing to do with that Satanic's stuff and so on. But me and others have seen that the pain isnt not cause by his back pain alone. Its something else, yep..that thing. He told us about the pain. What he had past through. Weird. I love my family. Its goddamn hurt when Im unable to do a thing to protect them. I really wanna kill the person who did this to dad.Really.Ughh  Curse this people. The only thing I can do is pray may Allah bless and protect my family from this evil and people's envy. Emmm chow bloggie