Endeavor

I can endure all type of feeling's pains. Upset and being disappointed, I can turn it on to courage. Hate and resent I can make it vanish with time. Sad and dissonant, I just ignore those. But there's only one thing I barely can handle. Angry and Mad. Yer know bloggie, its hard for me to reach my boiling point. For certain times, I able to encounter anger but of course not everyday. Jiwa aku jenis yg memberontak. When I reach my boiling pint my mind can easily loose control. Yesteryear, I had this feeling. Brief result, I punched my bestfriend's face and his nose got bleed so bad. We never be friend ever since, neither as enemy. Its not my fault actually, but it did makes me feel bad. This is the goddamn bad part of mine. Evil. So for all the next days I search myself for a solution. I must encounter manger. How to encounter mad? I failed to find the answer. I read an Hadith, if i wasnt mistaken, the hadith sounds like this "we put off fire with water so we put off anger with wudhu". Its true. But what if the anger comes out at which at the occasion theres no place for wudhu? I failed to find how to put it off in that situation. However Ive found one only way to encounter. I run myself for a better place & try to put myself at calm. It works. Avoid counter. Ill just get even mad if I do. Because Ive vowed for the rest of my life, I wont raise my hand on friend or my beloved person no more. family etc. I am bad in anger mode. My temperature is barely reach it boiling point. But once it reach it, its no good for others or even for myself. Thats the only option I could take if I serve in that condition, run away. Just run.