A Fiend

 A fiend will always be a fiend. Yes i admit it. Once I was a fiend, or maybe Im still a fiend, I don't know. I couldn't judge myself. It was all began when i was in my secondary school. The place where i've started to be wild, rude and naughty. Then after SPM i've joined the clan which is illegal and my parents didn't know until today. I came to Bangi where there are lots of dark side of me had been recorded. From Bangi we spread till Kedah, and then put a flag on Wangsa Maju. But i never killed a person, i won't do such thing. I still have my mind. But now i've changed, i've never involved with them anymore.  I know what i want, a future. I has a little brother 4 years younger than me. Naughty, wild and  such hard headed boy. Tonight father was very angry of him. He scolded him because of his naughtiness. He went out with his friends until midnight and didn't even told my parents where he go. More than 5th times he did the same habit. Im  doing my assignments that time then a word cast out from father " do you want to be like your brother?!!" there are more than that but i guess i shouldn't type it here. Im not hurt at all.. but it makes me realized something. No matter how far you have changed people will never forget of what you did in your past especially your bad history, your bad personality. A fiend will always be a fiend.. Maybe i could never be a good role model for my brother. So i just let him, do what ever he want. I've experienced all of his immatured behaviour before.. for a boy of his age he will never listen to advices.  But deep inside, i really care about him..  Truly i couldn't search a solution for this. But i mentioned earlier, as what i have experienced, mistakes will make him learn. That's the best teacher afterall..maybe..I hope so


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