Smile

I am not a good brother.Since I am not close to my siblings. Especially with my eldest brother. We were just like oil and water. I even more closed with my friends, my bestfriends. Maybe that's the reason. Rarely i spend the time at home together with them. But i tried to be friendly sometimes. I love my little sister and my little brother so much, Ateh and Aleh. However, compared to my eldest brother they were even much friendlier. Again, i rarely spent my time with them i guess. Plus, all the time at home..i didn't talk too much with my siblings,  merely i rather be silent and passive. I have my own reason why,what i have done long time ago always haunting me. Me like a taboo. I don't deserve talk. Stupid eh, i could never cope that weakness. At once i have ever read my sister's diary. There was one page about me. She said she afraid of me..haha, it's not funny actually. Herm..maybe it's because of my past history. This mid-term holiday made me learn so much about family's ties. Outside the house in the backyard, I looked at the sky.. it was very cloudy, hey it's gonna rain. Then i heard my sister shouted to my little sister " Ateh..angkat baju!!!" Haha, she was busy playing with her notebook, today each students got their own notebook from the government, free. No wonder, everyday and everytime she always with her beloved notebook,TC..Terengganu Computer on it. " Owoh gerang goh..macang ye xleh akat sdiri..!" Unwilling expression casted on her face..kihkih. I just looked at her, she doesn't even notice me standing behind her. One by one she took the clothes and putted them on her shoulder.  How pathetic.. "Meh cni abangoh tulong tek" . She looked at me.. Still, like a lion ROAR!! HAHAHAHA~  Then she continued pulling the clothes and at the same time she smiled. I don't know, but for me that was the sweetest smile i've ever seen from her. I'm very happy to see such expression, because for a guy like me whom assumed as a cold person in the family its a ...  Uhhh..how should i put this eah? terharu? tersentuh?hahaah... I don't have an idea. But whatever the feeling is.. Im so glad to see that smile ^_^