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"I like to play with my own emotions. Because heart is fragile. So, I wanna train it to be tough. If I could I wanna make it feelingless against love. Nah, heart is not that fragile. Heart will never break. Heart isn't made of glass. You do think so then thats whys your heart will break. Try to think that your heart is made of metal or something different. You do feel so because you believe in something that most possibly doesn't exist. Set on you mind, think of something that is oppose to surrounding. Feel and touch the different" Thats how two entity born and residing within me. I named it as Joker and Two Face. Joker make up his mind. Two Face follow his intuition. Joker construct the plan. Two Face toss the coin. Strategies created. Imply any of those strategies. Walla, decision is achieved. It feels great to be in Joker state. Feelingless but tough and strong. Two Face has feelings and thats make him weak. But Two Face intuition always right, soft. When both becomes one, I call it as my fullbring. Rarely I achieved to get long-lasting in that state. Thats how I become for what I am now. I feel no interest to pay care at unnecessary stuffs. Here i am, as Joker. I guess if someone read this possibly they will call me insane. Haih got lot to be typed. But  someone is interrupting me. His name is John, Faiz Shoaib. But most important I want to mention. Nabilah Manut, I dont know whether you still keep on reading this blog. I guess you never care. But if you read this. Forgive me for removing your friend status from FB, I have to otherwise I will keep in sorrow for a longer time. This is shortcut to get better quickly. I feel no regret because I am good now. Still I feel uncomfortable. Final exam is closer, thats the reason. I need full concentration, peace of mind. You are the person who are at the moment I am goddamn hesitate  to remove beacause you are kind to me. I hope you will understand. I still consider you as my friend, Epy too, good friend:). Im not putting such hope that you'll do the same, because for what I've done, its irrational. If not because of final exam I wont do this. Again I am sorry Nabilah. Could possibly you don't mind at all either for this. But still, I wanna..say good friend, forgive me. Haih.