Final Chapter

I supposed to post this entry last night, but wi-fi get trouble, prevent me from creating this entry. I don't know how to put a proper start. Uhm..I vowed to make it the last goodbye. To put an end for this chapter, make the ending special but unmemorable either for me or her. I did put an end. I was prepared for all the consequences. I just wanna know her feelings. What does she feel about me. If she has the same feeling as mine, our relationship will continue as usual. I wont ask more than that. Friend to friend is enough. Because I know ties such as so-called-couple means nothing, it couldn't be she is fated for me either. That future is still far beyond of what I could grab. For right now I am, I could promise nothing. If she doesn't have the same as mine, I will move on and get out of her world. Because I admit it myself, unrequited love is goddamn painful. Indeed I am not strong enough. Her happiness is my everything...I think don't need that quote anymore. During in Shah Alam I can see that she got nice and kind person around her. I believe she will always be happy. She don't need me to make her happy. She is happy-go-lucky kinda person. And uhh.. yeah as what I've predicted, her answer is negative. Maybe for certain person, this is unmatured. I blocked her in FB, her friends, everything about her. I don't want to hear,see even a thing about her. Not because I refused to befriend with her,NO. I must do this otherwise the same mistakes will happen twice. My heart, it just don't wanna give up. I killed it myself so many times yet it still able to recover and keep fight for this stupid feelings, intuition. I want to stop being a fool. I want to level up. Hmm I feel nothing right now. Sad?No.. Angry?No.. Happy? at the moment. Feelingless maybe. Haih. It's not easy for me to forget someone I love, but its not that hard either. I've done this before. Its not really a big deal for me to do it again. I know this is wrong, irrational decision. But this is the only option I have for the sake of my future. A shortcut. Final exam is closer. I need focus. I got ambition to be fulfill. Okay, The Rose chapter is laid to rest. I won't go back. Even if I want to, its too late. I've gone this far. I will keep going ahead:)