Fonder

If I could literally express and tell you how excited I am to see your smile, your laugh. It feels great to see you are happy, I'm so glad. Bloggie, she is The Rose I always mentioned before. It has been  almost 2years we know each other from the first semester of foundation until today. Until today I always fail to enchant her. Sometimes she's like giving me hints that she have the same feelings as mine and sometimes she isn't. The past trials proved everything. Always negative and negative. I afraid to ask. NO, I am not afraid to be rejected. It just..I afraid if her answer is negative, it will wipe away the warmth relationship we already have at this moment. I just want to see her happiness, her smiles, her laughs.. Her happiness is my everything. So, I won't ask more than that. Uhm, yesterday we went out to Putrajaya. Hot air balloons carnival. I made a mistake. The birthday gift I gave to her. It's not something she could always wear. This is Malaysia. Yeah, it's true. I am not upset with her. I'm just upset with myself. Being such an total idiot. I guess it was the most suitable gift. Indeed, no it's not. Hmm. But, I am really,really happy to see her I tell ya. Yeah, I do love her and and I do care about her. Even it is unrequited. I don't mind it now. Her happiness is all that I need to walk on this path. No matter how or whom she will be happy with. I will be glad:)This chapter is going to end soon. The final is closer.