Gratified

Law is as easy as breathing.Okay cocky.Two days sleptful debt only for LAW plus 4days for BisMath,CSC and CTU surely worth it.Except for Acc-_-haihh.Dont forget,never give up.Give it all what you have help me much last night.HAPPY! 5down one more left to go.But before that,my sleptful debt need to get paid.I am goddamn miserable right now after 6days in a world less worse than hell maybe,bhahaha.Im gonna have sleep like forever for three days.After then I wake up,I'll prepare and put my head on ADS.I got so much happy story today but I don't think Im gonna share it with you bloggie.I wanna remember today hehhe.Yargh,enough then.bye :D

Kablooey

Hell,I am all used up.Guess I wasted too much chakra on BisMath.I got no more chakras left for....Eh,damn,damn bluffed! Chakra??What chakra huh?? SEE, what it did to my brain??Grrr.Im in no no mood to study right now.My head is empty.I mean EMPTY.It refuse to accept any kinda education stuffs.I want some peace of mind.My spirit is at low level.Ohhh God, I wish there would be gap even for one day.Only for one day.Oh please.I need to reset my mind.Usually I just need to get some sleep to reset my memory but I couldnt get nice one.Disturbance.I could prepare nothing like this.With what I have what I already have,most probably I could only score B- for LAW.I want to score A for LAW goddammit.I feel miserable enough.I force myself to keep reading but..I JUST CANT GET INTO IT ANYMORE OKAYY!!roarrr rooaaerrrr roaarrrr.aummmmmm!bhahaha.Uhmm.I am not crazy.I just try to release these negative feelings.I hate this people who made this exam schedule.I wanna kick his ass.I wanna burn his hair.I wanna punch his eyes.Grrrrr.Stresses up much you know.I know theres not only me who face the same situation but uhh still damn you people.Sorry bloggie.I am too an evil sometimes.This is just a way for me to express my evil so I wouldn't conduct devil form in the real world.Haihh.

Tremendous

Imminence

Hye bloggie.Long time no see huh.Im not busy.Uhh..nah I am quite busy of course.Final exam is really close now.Feels like I got too much topic to be covered.I am damn worry right now.Hell yeah I am.You know what,in my entire life,this is the first time I feel fear of final exam.It was not like when I was in foundation,SPM and other final exams.This final is really make me goddamn uncomfortable.Maybe because this is degree.But I try to be optimist person.I must convert that fear to be my courage.Encourage me to study hard.I know its hard for me to achieve 3.5 and above after considering of my carry marks.Not so bad.But if I compared to others,I mean those person who didn't do their best for their tests,quizzes but still got well carry marks I tell myself.YEP MINE IS BAD.Maybe next time I will try to be less honest in tests.I am not yet give up.I know I am wasting my time here,bluffing and blogging.I just trying to invent such happy and good mood to continue on my study,thats all.So I guess theres nothing wrong right. really have a lot to share.About this one girl.I met her last evening.I just stayed quite and acts like nothing happen between us.Its not the time yet.I got more important stuff to be worry about.Life is simple if we make choices and don't look back,yeah I always put that on mind.Again it is still early for that step.I am trying to be honest but not serious in Joker state.Okay just bluffing.Uhm, 2.16 a.m already.I should go now.Bye.

Sweet Wheat

I don't have an idea how to explain how it feels. Still I am half conscious right now. But my head felt heavy, my hand and my arms felt numb too. So lunatic last night. Such a very,very long night. I was confused why everybody was laughing. What are everybody laughing at? What was so funny? I don't understand. I felt like everyone was crazy or I was the one who is crazy, losing control of his mind and body. At one moment I know what I am doing. Then I lose control and then bluffed. I tried to fight this feel, I want or remember this. I must take a note of this thing side effects. But I can't. My heart rising. Blood felt very warm. I can feel warm blood flowing very fast through my veins. So I just follow my head. In my head I kept thinking how I would feel if I wake up tomorrow morning? Will I remember what have I done last night? Hell I woke up, my worlds spinning. I look at the time, 1.30 p.m. I remember but only few of them. I mean memory distortion at the moment. Memory processing become slow. But I noted something. If you kept thinking and asking why?why?why? whats happening, you will get confused then you may get puffed, breathless. Just chill and relax. Few days ago I posted something on FB. Note. Haha, so funny. I broke my words. If Dad know about this he would probably kill me at instant. But I must live with that. Its just for fun. Experience. I post something in Twitter. I read it just know. You know what? I don't remember since when I posted that. I wont try it again. Enough for last night. Im becoming the person I don't even know who. Not so bad, I enjoyed. Still I must put on my mind. Its just for fun. This will be the first and the last time.

Grouping

Hye bloggie. I wanna make a quick, simple and short post. Final Exam is closer. Hell yeah preparing of course I am. Less on9. Less tweeting. Less Facebooking. More on studying. Yuck feels like not like me at all. Mom miss me. Asked me to go home this weekend. Negative. I Can't. This Staurday I have Kestaria's Writing Test. I do wanna go home. Me sorry so much. I do miss home. Busy on time. Caught her eyes. Attractive. Positive she did gave good hint. Put away that from mind. Yet isn't the time. Finished my CSC Flash Video. Completed. Goddamn I am tired. Got account's quiz tomorrow morning. Hell, I prepared nothing. Got nothing more to be shared. Just pass by to say hye. Goodbye.

7-1 Monkeys

Once I have people whom I called them bestfriends. On the beginning there were just three of us. Whatever we did, we did it together. It was all started when we skipped biology class. Me, Kidik and Fami. We didn't know where to go so I suggested one place. Betong, waterfall. It's became our habit then, skipped class to Betong. Time passed by, our members increase to seven. Idham, Kerol, Aki and Areh. It was fun. Problems, Punishment, Excitements we bear it all together. Haih, so naive and young. After SPM we were called by this person to joined so-called-gang. They said triad. Protection is guaranteed for those who joined. Its true, but I am disagreed. That's not how I do things. Fights, really immatured. Still I'm with them. In the name of bestfriends. Then, this so-called-gang pronounce who get active and involve in their dirty activities will be qualified and chosen to hold the title brother. What is that dirty jobs? Fight the weaklings, threaten them. I called that bully. Attract new members. Smuggling firearm and bullets. I feel disgusted, really. Bestfriends competed each other to get the title. Untangibly it wasn't visible. Everyone pretended to be nice to each other. Bestfriends broke apart when some of  them were not chosen to get the three positions after what they've sacrificed. Envy. What's so special about these position? They get honor, and trust by the upper. Upholding a big cable. I have no interest on that. So, I just stand still. They've become arrogant. Where was the people once I know as friends at least?  Me myself  have done a lot of their dirty works during in Bangi. My partner is a cripple because of that. I stopped then, and yeah I am afraid. Serik. He is dead now, late Taqiudin. Not because of this gang. Accident. But, I feel like his life is wasted. Crippled and left behind. No one from the members came to see him when he was in depressed. Fuck these people. I leaved them now but I still keep them in contact. Friend will always be friend. I am all alone, but it's okay. I am used to be alone. I trained myself to get used to it. Lonewolf walk alone. Here in Malacca I met this one guy. Few days ago. I don't have an idea how does he know about my members. What I know he recognize all of the big members, brothers. The leader too. He saw my bagde symbol in my lappy, thats how he know about me. I don't give a damn about him since I have no more interest about this fucking group. To hell with them. But he always trying to retrieved what I know by asking annoying questions. Provoke. To be honest, its really pisses me off. But I keep my head down. I don't want to get angry even hell yeah I am. Thats all he want. To make me angry. He will get an objective to intersect the line if I do angry. Thats how these groups do things. Ive been there and Ive done this. I know  how they think. Psycho. Hey,I lost my bestfriends because of them. For all these days I try to avoid them inside and outside. I blocked all of the members within this group from FB. I dont want to have any connections or any kinda relations with the groups. I am not pissed off because of he provoked the group. Its because I hate these people. Great numbers make them think they are invincible and powerful. Berlagak.

One

"I like to play with my own emotions. Because heart is fragile. So, I wanna train it to be tough. If I could I wanna make it feelingless against love. Nah, heart is not that fragile. Heart will never break. Heart isn't made of glass. You do think so then thats whys your heart will break. Try to think that your heart is made of metal or something different. You do feel so because you believe in something that most possibly doesn't exist. Set on you mind, think of something that is oppose to surrounding. Feel and touch the different" Thats how two entity born and residing within me. I named it as Joker and Two Face. Joker make up his mind. Two Face follow his intuition. Joker construct the plan. Two Face toss the coin. Strategies created. Imply any of those strategies. Walla, decision is achieved. It feels great to be in Joker state. Feelingless but tough and strong. Two Face has feelings and thats make him weak. But Two Face intuition always right, soft. When both becomes one, I call it as my fullbring. Rarely I achieved to get long-lasting in that state. Thats how I become for what I am now. I feel no interest to pay care at unnecessary stuffs. Here i am, as Joker. I guess if someone read this possibly they will call me insane. Haih got lot to be typed. But  someone is interrupting me. His name is John, Faiz Shoaib. But most important I want to mention. Nabilah Manut, I dont know whether you still keep on reading this blog. I guess you never care. But if you read this. Forgive me for removing your friend status from FB, I have to otherwise I will keep in sorrow for a longer time. This is shortcut to get better quickly. I feel no regret because I am good now. Still I feel uncomfortable. Final exam is closer, thats the reason. I need full concentration, peace of mind. You are the person who are at the moment I am goddamn hesitate  to remove beacause you are kind to me. I hope you will understand. I still consider you as my friend, Epy too, good friend:). Im not putting such hope that you'll do the same, because for what I've done, its irrational. If not because of final exam I wont do this. Again I am sorry Nabilah. Could possibly you don't mind at all either for this. But still, I wanna..say good friend, forgive me. Haih.

1,2,3

26th, 28th, 29th, 30th and lastly 10th. Damn, damn, damn, damn. I counted the days, I calculated and made some predictions. 3.5 is hard to be achieved. NO, it's hard because I am less prepared. There is only one thing linger in my mind, every moment. Account. Totally I am dumb against account. I hate and I don't like it. Not one bit. I love maths. I love calculations. I like to play with the formula. THINK. But account..I need to understand the terms of some sort of account or kinda sheet they call, its just boring, memorize the formats. I am not a type of memorizeable person Actually on the beginning I love account because the lecturer is cute,Bhahaha. Haih I mean her way of lecturing is effective thats what I mean cute, for me.SHARP. Yet I can retrieved. This new lecturer isn't cute,haha. Penang mari. Repeat? No, I wont let that happen. I say hard doesn't mean I take a dive. Law, Ads.. I shouldn't underestimate this subject even most say its your trump card. Don't play. Haih. I don't know what I'm doing here blogging. Just get bored and headache. Guess I will continue bismath tonight. I wanna rest. 3.5, 3.5, 3.5 no.. 4FLAT..haha:p